Like I always say, This Too Shall Pass

It is a wonderful feeling to be living in a sad moment but seeing the brighter future ever so clearly. The thing is even as I pray to God to heal my heart, that is so often broken to the point of physical pain especially when I hear “We Belong Together” or “Don’t Forget About Us” , I thank God simultaneously for giving me peace in knowing that this too shall pass. I went to my beauticians’ church on Sunday. It was way too long for my liking. It started at 10:30 am I left at 1”30 pm and they actually weren’t done. But anyway the one thing that he said that touched me was “There are some dead things in your life that God is about to reincarnate”. He said “It might be your finances, it might be a relationship”. I knew he meant me. I know that my relationship, not one in particular, but my relationship status, is about to be revitalized. This doesn’t mean that I am about to be back with Hero or even that I want to. It simply means that loneliness will disappear. Sometimes I find myself literally praying God to take my heart from my body ‘cause it hurts so bad. The regret is overwhelming. I regret messing up a good thing with a good man. But anyway, back to the lesson at hand…being grateful for the trials because without trials and tribulations healing and true happiness cannot be revealed. I relearned that at church Sunday too. I say relearned ‘cause of course I knew “No pain, no gain”. Cause if Mary and Martha’s brother, whose L name escapes me, hadn’t died and then been resurrected by Jesus, they wouldn’t have known the miracles of the Lord. So anyway, Hero and I engaged in a multi-hour, 60+ , text conversation last night. He had the nerve to ask me to come visit. Yeah right negroid, you just experienced one of the most important days of your life without me. His graduation was this past weekend. I think but don’t really know or care if Tyrese face was there and of course all of his friends and family. And now that’s done you think I am coming? Puhleeze! I love you but I love myself too. So anyway, like I was saying, even in my darkest most lonely hour, God has vested so much love and faith in me that I can see sunshine clearly. And I think him for that priceless peace.