Hero saves the DAY!

I had a horrible experience this morning. So horrible that my hands are unwilling to type about it. So anyway I called Hero and told him about it. I told him that I wanted to come visit him to make me feel better. He said okay. Then later he called and was like "I'm on the way to your house". Surprise, he had just got to town, he claimed on some mix-tape shit. His first stop was to see me. He looked really sexy, he has lost so much weight. He said that I looked cute even though I was bed-headed in pajamas. It went down (as expected). He said that he was feeling kinda akward but that he missed and wanted me still. So I gave him a lil something something. Made him say my name and stuff, the usual. It felt okay, I couldn't feel the emotions that I used to so that made it weird. Felt good to be able to put it down like I like to. I havent reached that level of comfort with "The Rapper" yet. After we were done, he didn't stay around long. I knew he wouldn't, plus I had things to do anyway. But I was kinda mad that he tried to cheek me afterwards on a kiss. Yeah, Ok, Hero. I am amused that he thinks he is having his cake and eating it to by hitting this but not being commited. UH NO! See the thing is, I put in serious work in the bedrooom with this man. He cannot resist it. Never has, never will. So while he thinks he's playing me; I am drawing him in more and more, little by little. Not that I want him, but I am convinced (not to mention he said it), that no one can do my Hero like me. For real, considering the list of the things that I have put him thru, the fact that he still comes back anxious as ever, must mean something. Right? But all and all it erased my bad morning and made me smile. Hero is going back to school tomorrow. I wanna go with him but, I miss "The Rapper" and hope to spend time with him this weekend. There has never been a time in my life when I wasn't sexually monogamous. I feel a strong desire to make a choice. I guess if I don't go back with Hero tomorrow, I'll cut off his pussy privalages. The hardest decision I'll ever make 'cause thats how I keep my potential, sometimes hopeful, future husband on lock!