All you gotta do is ask...

As usual, I was on the phone with "The Rapper" into the wee hours of the a.m. We have stimulating conversations. We laugh a lot. I love to go back and forth with him cause as much as he makes me smile, I can hear his voice change when I make him smile. I don't get this feeling from anybody else I know. I used to with Hero. But that died and is only resuscitated every now and then. “The Rapper” internalizes everything that I say. That’s a rare occurrence with men. Usually everything is in one ear and out of the other in miliseconds. But anyway, this particular night, he asked "If you had one wish, what would it be”. I said “I wish that my lil’ sister could talk”. He said “really?” and then told me that he wished he could know everything. He said that he would take on certain jobs for like a year , just cause he could. This is how he "would stack his paper". Like, being an architect. He never asked me to go into detail about my lil’ sister. I didn’t know which direction to go in with this. Maybe he doesn’t care. Maybe he thinks I don’t like to or wouldn’t want to talk about it with him. But I would. We have grown close really quick and I would feel totally comfortable expressing my emotions concerning my sister. He would be a good candidate to hear about the times that I have been mad at God for depriving the most perfect person that I know of words. I would tell him that I am afraid to pray for her because if my prayers went unanswered I wouldn’t know how to deal. If he asked, I would tell him that I would give me life in full or in part just for her to have words. My sister was born with Cerebral Palsy and is unable to walk or talk. Her mind and all of her senses are as sharp as Ginsu knives though. I love her more than anybody on Earth, parents and self included. She is the only person I know that is always happy. That is unless somebody close to her is sad, or she is feeling jealous because our Dad (these two are inseparable) is giving another daughter too much attention. She can sense my deepest realst feelings and she always knows just how to react to make me feel better. “The Rapper” knows that I am silly but would he believe me if I told him how I act like a complete buffoon just to make her laugh until she runs out of breathe? I love my sister.

“Rapper” you’ve crossed into my circle so whatever you wanna know, just ask. But then again, like I said, maybe he doesn’t care.