Numerology

This has to be one of the most random blogs I've written lately. But it makes total sense (to me, lol). So, per facebook, I have been seeing SO many unattractive and or unlikely couples. Which got me to thinking, am I the only one who's still in it for looks? I mean damn people. Where are your standards? Don't get me wrong, I am far from conceited and even further from perfect. I am however, a realist. Which is how and why I am completely aware of the fact that I am somewhere between a 5 and a 7. All things considered. And as a direct result, I only date 8's and up. Because, on their best day couples should come together and create a strong 15! So why then are 5's dating 4's. That ish does not add up. People, we have future babies, photo opportunities and public outings to consider. I know there are situations where personality proceeds or outshines looks but damn...not that often. I have dated someone who was text book ugly but the way he moved totally took up for the physicalaties. However he was still hella ugly and I knew that. I wouldn't dare be cheesing all on my profile pic with him. And I definitely would not have his babies. Wait, I'm rethinking this as I write it. Perhaps, because I love him so much, I would make him my husband and my baby daddy. But, I would never deny his level of unattractiveness. And I feel like that's what a lot of people do when they go public with their relationships. It's like ''look what I got'' while pointing to your chicken pox. I mean it's tight that you get to miss school but I don't want that crap for real. I'm not advocating shallowness, I am simply encouraging discretionary behaviors. Be picky. You're worth it. And if your not, that's even more reason to date attractive people. You don't want your relationship to be a double negative. Now I realize my technique seems slightly confusing because what 1O wants to date a 5 right? Well that's why we should all do our absolute best to be 6's. That way you only have to shoot for 9's. Which is totally possible. Keep in mind this person may not be a total 9. They may be a 7 or an 8 on their regular day, which totally increases the chance that they would date a 6. In the extreme case where you feel it is impossible for your rating to exceed a 4, you have a few options. The first is to be bisexual and date both a male and a female 4 and become a strong 16. Date another 4 (or less), and be so ugly together that no one will notice. Or if you luck up, date that 10 but just don't take any profile pictures where you are that chcken pox scab.

Suddenness

Suddenly it started.
We met
We liked
We loved
We tried
We failed
We stayed
We left
We returned
We quit.
Suddenly it ended.

I can't sleep for thinking of you

Late, past the midnight hour and I can't help but think of you. I miss you so much. Especially when the day is done and all I have is me. I wonder where you are, what you're doing, who you're with, how you're doing and more than anything, I wonder if you're thinking of me. Ever? Do you even remember me? And what we had? And how we did? I think about us often. And smile. I cannot close my eyes and dream of you 'cause I'm too busy thinking of you. I miss laughing and smiling with you. And the way you calmed me down for better or worse. All the jokes and the way you touched me. I love you. Sometimes I saw a future for us. Even though you were already married to the streets and I had what I consider bigger and better plans I had a place for you in my heart. I can't help but wonder what could have been. Or could be?