BURNING BRIDGES IS A WAY OF SUSTAINING CHANGE BY ENSURING THERE IS NO WAY BACK.

I don't like to carve things in stone but BLACK BABY JESUS people . . . be careful what you pray for. I always see things that I pray for come to pass but this most recent experience OOH WEE! So starting like 7 months ago I say, probably in September, all day everyday I would say "I wish this car and this job and this house and my life as I know it would just disappear." Not in a negative way though, I just wanted a new start. And now I have one. All of those things are gone. THANK YOU LORD! Even though I don't fully understand, I remain grateful. I was forced to abruptly quit my job of 7 years. The engine or motor went out on my 2 year old car. I'm no longer friends with at least 7 different people cause of all the recent drama. So the words of my mouth had so much more strength than I suspected. I cried some nights over it 'cause I said it said it said it "car go away, job go away, house go away, bloodsuckers go away". All of those things went away before I knew it. Before I decided if that's what I really wanted. Too late now, what's done is done. And boy and I am glad for it. At first I was like damn, what if I need this or that or him or her but now I stick by this "BURNING BRIDGES IS A WAY OF SUSTAINING CHANGE BY ENSURING THERE IS NO WAY BACK." Basically, considering me and my personality I would have tried to make things right with people or situations 'cause I've tried to grow into that peacemaking, forgiving person. But the way things happened, there is no way i will try and and make amends. So i still love life the same and onward and upward. That's all I know!

The easy way out

Since I kinda just turned 25, I'm gonna copy the post from when I turned 23 and just update it 'cause I can't think of a way to ease back in to my true love...this site.

1. Haven’t really talked to Hero….don’t know if he is a babies daddy!
HE'S NOT A BABIES DADDY!
2. Back in touch with The Rapper… was loving that…mad at him at this moment
WHEW! THATS BEEN A ROLLER COASTER RIDE...I MISS HIM
3. Have a 95% in math…killing ‘em
GRADUATED AUGUST '06
4. Have a 455 / 500 in Spanish….thank you Jesus
GRADUATED AUGUST '06
5. 100% sure I am graduating in August
SEE :)
6. but I gotta come up with $1, 000 to pay for summer school
DONE DEAL
7. Decided to go to grad school
DON'T WANT TO
8. Workout EVERYDAY (except Sunday), totally can see changes in my body
NOT ANYMORE..I'M FAT AGAIN
9. Might be going on tour with The Rapper
DIDN'T HAPPEN
10. Generally happy
STILL GENERALLY HAPPY
11. Was hospitalized for food poisoning *pukes in mouth at thought of Qdoba*
WAS HOSPITALIZED FOR THIS CRAZY FINGER THING...NUTZ
12. Had 2 talk 2 1 of my old friends slash new enemies to tell her about a death
I DON'T EVEN REMEMBER WHO DIED...THAT'S BAD
13. Proposal for crimes committed: “Drop the carrying a concealed weapon, plead guilty and pay fine for DTP, 2 years probation, 2 year ban from mall and a theft class for the necklace”
CHARGED WITH LITTERING AND DTP
14. Fuck no, my attorney better get on her J-O-B cause I love the mall too much
THAT SHIT IS STILL ON MY REORD I NEED TO GET IT EXPUNGED
15. Don’t wanna work at the major corp. when I graduate but everyone else wants me to so I haven’t said anything
DIDN'T GET THAT JOB..SUCKAS!!
16. Thighs are sore from working out
NOT NOW
17. Saw ATL twice, got jealous on the sex scenes
WATCH IT ALL THE TIME...STILL LOVE HIM
18. bought a ticket 4 the TI concert, 1 ticket, going solo, looking forward to it
PERSONAL GROWTH EXPERINCE...O O O O I JUST LOVE HIM
19. Anxious to see Scary Movie 3
WAS NOT AS GOOD AS 2
20. I’m “Tuma” @ workout class cause “U look like u got a big ass fuckin tumor”
THAT IS STILL LOL FUNNY
21. I know one of the 8.5 million dollar Powerball winners
NO I DIDN'T
22. Realized Easter is weird if you aren’t a kid and don’t have any kids
AND IT'S ALMOST EASTER AGAIN...irony
23. Bought my first adult toy, some gummy flavored ring things
HE CUD NOT FIT 'EM. NONE OF 'EM COULD.

24. SO OVER TE YEAR THAT I WAS (24)
25. THAT I AM (25)