I really sent him this

Dear Hero,
I have been thinking a lot about you lately. Every time I think about you, I always feel like I need to be 100% honest with you and just stop faking and or playing games cause I often find myself doing that we try to hang out or make out. I think then that some of the issues that still weigh heavily on my heart will find themselves resolved. So here is an attempt at that. When I do think about you, it is the old us more than anything. But sometimes it is still your entire person that I miss and not just the old times or your old ways. And whenever things happen in my life you still come to mind damned near first, after family. I do want you to know that I don’t harbor any bad feelings towards you anymore. I have forgiven you for everything that you have done. I do hope on some days that when the new you becomes complete and you become the Hero that I loved but even more lovable because you have grown I will be around. Being without you has forced me to grow a lot. The mistakes that I made with us have also forced me to grow. You remember how I would feel like I needed a big change. Well Friday, I cut my hair off. So I am back to your bald-head baby. After I did that I thought so much about you when I was looking in the mirror because of course it reminded me of the old me. It reminded me of how I used to be, so then on my way home from the salon, I saw you. I don’t know if you saw me but I thought wow how weird was that! So to make a long story short;, I still have love for you and some days, I miss us. At any rate, I hope that all things are going well with you and if they aren’t know that you are always in my prayers. And I hope all goes well with this final semester. Congrats on graduation!